The razor-sharp edge of the butterfly wing.

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 17:10:43 GMT

I fucking hate christmas.
It's the anti-merriment.

your guess is as good as mine

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 04:27:13 GMT

i appreciate that saying when used correctly, but i doubt it ever is. im 20 days shy of another year older, hopped up on dayquil and happy. this presistaint urge to dance with no ability to do so has got me down. i want to shake it! i want to get drunk and shake it! yahr.

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 05:25:57 GMT

we recieved word tonight we were accepted into a great appt. i had no doubt, 11 hangs on the door. this is a huge yay. very positive step up.

the eleventh month

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 15:27:00 GMT

the time feels right. the clouds are burning off. my sight seems right, perception perhaps a little off off off off. guns upon the shielf, once undressed and figured out. for now no longer needed until i know what its about bout bout bout. i have my wings to guide me, mutant and beautiful. my hands no longer find me bent and terrible. in life there is sorrow, in death - happines, so come to accept my lovely devils, devils dress dress dress dress! the time seems so right, to enter solid life.

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 20:31:37 GMT

.. out. you missed the joke, fucker.

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 20:26:37 GMT

i am changing my rules. or, rather, updating them. i no longer care why or where it will get me, im just gonna do it because it feels good. i trust my urges enough to follow them and thd moment is SO MUCH MORE FUCKING IMPORTAINT THAN THE MAY-BE. i hyphenated that because apparently the hyphen is going out of style. im very in the love. i love many people and things. im not comfortable fucking them all! apperently if you express great appreciation and interest in someone, they expect you to put o

in one ear..

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 21:37:37 GMT

Last night was a long one. Im remembering scattered pieces in confusing orders. There are people in this world that refuse to accept theyre not the only people on this planet. That hit hard last night. I found myself in the parking lot sobbing, screaming and ready to fight. Hilights included Robert pissing off Death metal, Juli openly sharing opinions on how shed run my life, Steves girlfriend shmoozin with some guy the night he leaves for china. and bendall. I could do better indeed.

Sticky grounds, ground's sticky.

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 22:07:35 GMT

"Perhaps the time will come," said she.
"Perhaps the time has come," said he.
"Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps." said she.
"FUCK YOU!!!" said he.

And so I travel these roads that lead to places I've been. I keep coming full circle in this wonderful little place. I used to be lost all of the time and now I've come to make friends. The drive is long and winding, looks different in the dark and depending on the driver, leads to diverse experiences.
"I have for far too long been the passenger," she said.
"Perhaps you haven't," said she.
And I agreed with me.
Roads I've been down in certain company, to certain functions, with certain pot-luck dishes -- also take me to other company with entirely different pot-luck dishes. At first I wondered if I should leave it for another calm day that I might eat little paths out of but I am comming to enjoy it. Set roots. Grow leaves. And yes, I know my mistakes were made a few houses down, a few days away - but theres a respect in knowing that I can tell them to pull over at any point in time and find a place to stay.

Time Travel
*little bunny paws out front, ears back, eyes wild*
You're not of this conversation, oh fella to the left. The guy behind you gets the joke, so he can stay.
Hullo,
I have access to an empty house and a real keyboad so it's time to ramblepost like I used to. What's going on in Rosalife. . . Well, theres a cute widdle kitty in my house - RAMPAGING. Darling almost ripped my skirt off today. Must be learning from Philip Bear.
Hm. I'm also learning how to play nice for the locks. You know, the ones that will open doors in the future. I'm playing nice as usual, as evil, as keeping you around so that I might see your unavoidable distruction. Peeping in when some elderly lady of symbolism opens the door to crack you in the noggin' and bust that charming demeanor. Then the pretty girls currently floating your gas gague will find something else shiney and I can finally stand above you, grinning with little pixie wings. I didn't do it, don't look at me. Shouldn't have been lookin' in on what wasn't your business.
I've been sloshing the idea of The Ride around in my head. Side to side. Tide goes in, tide goes out. Most don't get it. Some do!!! Some get the fact that they will not have exactly what they have for ALLLOOFFFFFEEEETTTUUUURRRNNNNIIITTTYYY. (my best god voice.) Some of these dear creatures even ENJOY that fact. We're here for a good time / not a long time / so have a good time / the sun can't shine everyday.
Put frankly, because now I'm pissed off, enjoy what you've got today. If you make plans for the future, do it with the part of your heart that is both capable of dreaming and baby steps. Leave the dependance out of it. Let me repeat that; Leave The Dependance Out Of It. Your parents are gone, no one owes you a goddamn thing... and if the tide takes the rocks away, trust that they're probably enjoying the bottom of the ocean just as well they did the shore. Take the advice of rocks. Is what it is. Fricken EVILGOOD. Get it? Just letters in a row. Theres no longer a space. Or any kind of identifying features to each. Just letters on paper...
If I could bottle happy thoughts and energy, I could rip the world off for millions. Far too many people just want someone else to do it for them. I wouldn't sell it to those who are blank and honestly incapable of making it for themselves. No, just the stupid.
The truck has long sinse roared up the driveway and the sounds of smaller feet and vaccumes and evil giggles have filled the house so I get to stop ranting now. Close call, I almost rolled heads.

TIME. FOR. ZIM. *eheheheh*

And remember kids,
make sure you're enjoying what you pay for.. and never paying for what you enjoy.

post VI year invasion

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 03:27:28 GMT

thank you for your dirty faced ideals, youve made my asention flawless.. my wings are made of your shit. beauty by default. how lucky i am.

you always return from casual walks.

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 18:36:49 GMT

i am proud and fascinated by my life lately. im so on top of things. im more than happy, more than having a good week.. im in the magic.

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 21:01:01 GMT

i have to invent a new language to describe how i feel about this man. and im praying it will apply after im done cutting the legs off his petastool..

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 06:20:02 GMT

k so actors read script then try and use what they've read to escape the horror movie they
're in
omg awesome.

Fri, 07 Aug 2009 17:28:15 GMT

It's bad enough I woke up in the wrong bed alone, but wheres the turtle on my feet while I'm brushing my teeth?

=(

ma'dam adapto has left, you just missed her in fact! if you chose to chase after her, say hi.

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 14:50:49 GMT

I've narrowed my crowd to a few good people. Meaning I've burned a lot of bridges.
Now, through the smoke, I see them playing frizbee.. and realize I've left mine on the other side.
I know there are more frizbees in the world but at the moment, I don't have one... the nearest store is a two hour walk over a tightrope made of sharks with connections to my old pals playing with my lost toys. Or I could go for a swim. (evidently, pride hates water.)
So I find myself, 7:30AM, awaiting the grocerie store to open. Not even sure what I want but when it opens, but I'll have been waiting for an hour. It's peaceful, having so long, knowing I'm not going anywhere for no good reason.

=)

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 05:11:36 GMT

im ready! summer is here to thrust me in to fall, lets get this ball rolling!

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 05:05:48 GMT

I have the greatest idea for a pendant. isn't it a shame i don't wear pendants.

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 02:48:40 GMT

I have new pets! Fig and Bruce. They're newts. They're amazing! Getting a acquarium for 'em, live plants. Pretty excited!
I slammed my new coat in the door and ripped the seams while on the docket to make'a pockets. lol
If I could put one memory into an envelope for 40 years from now, it'd be laughing with Steve on that dock. It's happened so many times - just the two of us - the most beautiful lake..
It crossed my mind on the drive that if he ever gets married, I couldn't attend. I'm not sure what that says.

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 10:45:17 GMT

im so full of shit.

being the outlaw.

Fri, 15 May 2009 06:37:07 GMT

I live in a world where outlaws have no understanding. I am no part of their world but they cannot see it because I am such a vital part of their world.
Part of being an outlaw is never needing/knowing how to explain my position. I just am, do what you need to me, I will just be.

I didn't vote. I file my taxes late. I dream in colour. Shackle me, break my heart, tell me you love me but you're with someone else. I see it all and I love it all and there is really nothing you can do to me that changes it. I am free in the world wether it's a liberal, conservitive or green one. Why should I lie to myself and believe I make a difference. Pain and love and freedom and hope and charisma and beauty and angels are all a state of mind and time. The universe will ultimatly win - nothing is greater than the hard journey to death of the conciousness.
then we're all gonna be just dirt in the ground.

Thu, 14 May 2009 01:42:52 GMT

'Cause the one thing stronger than the whiskey
Was the sight of her holdin' my baby girl.

Wed, 06 May 2009 20:59:40 GMT

i've found someone again. there are so many bodies in the sea that we become overwhelmed. each fish has their own colour and scars. i don't understand so much about them so im lost, but i do what comes natural when i get the chance to be close to someone, i do what i can only wish toe done to me... i care and nurture.. i entertain and comfort. theres no way to know if theres a stage and they're acting for months, but i am honest from the start. i have yet to meet someone the same. i'm terrified but primally ready to give it a shot. it's getting harder and i've developed the toxic need for this to be the last beginning. we'll see.

Sun, 03 May 2009 09:04:11 GMT

You know, the most beautiful part of being manipulated is that they're your strings they're pulling.

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 16:36:27 GMT

Theres a pair out there that have hugely effected my life. From my thursday morning longings for stoner jazz, my self-association to bunnies, my sexy little red dress and husband to match, my openness to my imagination on a multitude of topics, to my love for KMFDM.

And, though I've been distaint, my life and I appreciate them still.

Sun, 19 Apr 2009 09:44:45 GMT

does being hotter than someone really mean i shouldn't date them, mat? hm.

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 04:13:50 GMT

I AM GOING TO BED.